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see it all, believe nothing

without direction...

Mon May 25, 2009, 8:51 PM
the girl sits alone tonite... alone in a crowded room... she ponders the why's of her existence and questions the hows of her being... she misses Him.. the One who gives her direction.. the One who reminds her daily that she has a purpose.. that her life is one of significance and that her existence isn't meaningless... is it wrong that she longs for such things.. that she longs for the One to finally be her Saviour... the One who will see the light inside... the fire in her belly.. and will want to help her find her place.. her place in His home... is that wrong?.. the girl wonders... the girls thinks of days long gone... of the time when she felt her life held meaning and her desires were warranted... the girl longs for those days again... she scurries about her life now... without aim... without reason... she is a lost soul... a match without a flame... a foot without a shoe... the girl is lost... her mind aches... her body aches... the girls ears bleed... she hopes.. she crosses her fingers and prays to the G/gods for the thing she hopes... she has found O/others... those countless O/others who has attempted to fill the void but could not... those countless O/ones who have tried... who have asked the girl for direction on how to direct her... the girl scoffs at them... she wonders how they became to exist... the girl wants only one thing... only one being.. the girl wants only to be directed... only to be guided... the girl wants... only the one thing... is it possible.. the girl is starting to doubt....

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:iconalthebunny:
hey!! thank for the watch hun!! ^_^

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I Love you Cha!!
:iconcrystalhiz:
thanks to the girl for her kind comment!

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- come as you are -
:iconmarilynsalterego:
the girl thanks you for giving her article to comment on...
:iconhexx77:
Thanks for stopping by my gallery ;)

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The artist formerly known as Dave
:iconmarilynsalterego:
the girl visited herself today... to see how the world revolved.. it still does...
:iconhouseofavalon:
Last night was cold.

I drove down by the river. The place that was us. The place but not the time. Where I spent all that would be. I thought that if I could look across to where you sat then somehow that time would live again and I could touch your spirit in the now.

Tonight will be cold.

Tomorrow will be cold. I turn away. the end.
:iconhouseofavalon:
This O/one wants to know how you are doing. Why? Who knows. Perhaps he is a bit crazy. Or perhaps the male Gorean is stubborn. Or perhaps the fool is enslaved by the slave. Is it not always the way of it? Perhaps he thinks you are his morning star and wants to talk to you again beneath the fabled McMinnville moon. Perhaps not. Perhaps He only needs a good photo.

He sat across from her and she was too much for Him. It was impossible to understand her in the time it takes to air an episode of 20/20.

Y/you have missed the point of all this. It is the Master who is enslaved. He is enslaved by the girl. The home stone was empty. He had such hope she they would serve each other.

The floor of the House knows all. It hears all. It remembers the feel of soft steps. It remembers the sound of love. The House remembers in the silence.

Is it the nineteenth hour?
:iconmarilynsalterego:
the girl is fine... the girl wonders also why You seem to be so interested in the whats and whys of the girl... crazy... perhaps...

the girl ponders the enslavement by the slave of One that she never possessed and was never possessed by... the girl doesn't understand it at all...

sitting across from the girl does not make the Master the expert of the girl... sitting in the area across from the girl does not make the girl obligated to One... the girl never professed to believe it did... the girl knew then... and the girl knows now that this One... that this Master... that this Gorean... could not be the One for her... she has taken the time... she has pushed the jewel inward... the girl knew then... the girl knows now... that the understanding of her is not possible by mere man... not possible by even They who claim to harbour such desires for the girl... the girl knows...

the girl has not missed the point of any of this... the girl knows that the emails she receives... that every note she receives... that every letter tossed upon the screen... the girl knows that these are spat forth with emotion and desire... but not the emotions and desire the Master would hope... but the girl believes them to be the rantings of a man who has suffered an ego bruise... the girl believes that in NO world... under NO moon... under NO tri moon... is it possible to develop such feelings of deep and trickling desire... not possible without spending time in the girls presence... without spending time in the training... in the corrections... in the praisings of the girl... the girl knows that this thing... this one thing... this deep desire could not be possible...

the girl believes the floor to know all... the woods soak every feeling... every thought... every word... unspoken... the girl knows that only the creaking of the wooden floor can serve as a reminder that though we are each alone in this world... we are not... for as the Master said... the floor knows all..
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